Saturday, October 18, 2008

I need to watch my language

LOL The other night I tripped over a toy in R's room and then stepped on another toy. My response, logically, was "SHIT!" R, of course, responded with "SHIT!" B went in, and when leaving tripped over the same toy. Riley yelled, "SHIT!" LOL I shouldn't have laughed, but how could I not? It was hysterical! We did have a talk about appropriate language though.

Today was just running around. Went to a craft fair. Bought R a train puzzle that he'll get for Christmas. I don't know what else he'll get this year. Haven't thought that far ahead! lol He's showing more interest in things this year though, so there will be some serious thought going into it. And he's into more than just trains.

Bought him his Halloween costume. He's being a blue butterfly. Yep, that's right, a BLUE BUTTERFLY. My SON. lol It's so cute! He is so excited. But today at KMart we found blue butterfly wings and antenna for $5. And I bought him navy blue sweats and long sleeved t-shirt the other night. Now that I think about it though, they should be black. *shrug* Oh well, I'll buy black too!

Alright, gotta get ready for our trip!!!

Later!

Friday, October 17, 2008

What a week!

R is just being a monster. I don't know what the deal is, the fact that we just had a full moon? IDK, but it's awful! He talks back, tells me to shut up, doesn't do what I tell him, all of it. It's like he's a teenager at 3! He is just foul.

Today we were playing and he kicked me in the head. Yep, on purpose! Needless to say THAT didn't fly! lol He is napping now. He needs it. I think that's part of the problem, not enough sleep. I hope this improves his mood when he wakes up.

I can't figure out what's up. My bank account isn't balancing out. I can't figure out what I did. But it's a HUGE difference. We're talking over $100 off. At this point I just can't do anything with it because I have to wait for things to clear. Some of it will be explained when the two things from yesterday post but that isn't all of it either. ARGH! I HATE when this happens. :(

Went to the outlets yesterday with K & the girls. Bought R some jammies. And underwear. I need to get him jeans and some long sleeved shirts too. Looking at size charts yesterday I realize that he's taller than I thought! lol It's easy to ignore when it's hot and he's in shorts all the time. But now that he's in pants and long sleeves it's hard to ignore. You know, when the sleeves don't reach the wrists it's a bad thing. lol

I got a lot of stuff done today though. I got the rest of the laundry done & put away. Put the dishes away. Made breakfast. Washed the sheets. Taught R to make his bed and to hang up his shirts. There was more, but I don't remember what it was now. lol

I'm just tired today. It's gloomy out. But it's over 80*'s. Oh well. It's fall. It shouldn't be this warm out. But whatever. *shrug* Not like I can change it.

Oh well, I'm gonna try to sell some books on half.com. Later!

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Feeling somewhat better

It's been a long few days. But I'm feeling somewhat better.

Monday, October 13, 2008

I. cannot. handle. this.

Is it too much to fucking ask that someone, anyone, remembers that a year ago I lost a baby? Even my stupid ass fucking HUSBAND didn't remember. And when I mentioned that I was having a rough fucking time, what is his response? To go back to sleep. Fuck him. Fuck everyone.

I'm had 3 miscarriages. And what do people say? First it was "Well, at least you got pregnant." Fuck you. Now it's "Be thankful for the one you have." Double fuck you, asshole. Because mourning the ones I lost somehow means that I am NOT thankful for Riley? I hate people. I am sick of acting like these losses didn't matter.

They DID matter, and they DO matter. They were little PEOPLE. They were PART of ME. I hate everyone right now. And yes, that includes Brad. I don't hate Riley. He's too little to know.

I'm just done.

I can't handle this.

I can't handle hurting like this.

I can't handle it.

I can't handle it.

I can't handle it.

I'm losing my fucking mind.

I'm done.

Sunday, September 07, 2008

A few Riley-isms

"Da', I need quarter." Apparently he wanted to play a video game.

"Targate! Targate!" While watching the opening credits of Stargate on the SciFi channel the other night. How he knew what it was when the opening credits for the ones we have on DVD are different is beyond me.

"I want un-wear." Yep, that's my boy, asking to wear underwear instead of a diaper. I'm a little sad. Ok, not really. I really want him to potty train NOW!

"Want Star! Want Star!" Yep, that would be my 3 year old asking for Starbucks.

"Want cossey." Yeah, coffee. He asks for coffee. And yes, sometimes he gets it. With a lot of milk! Basically, Riley likes a little coffee in his milk. :)

"Chitty Chat." That would be kitty cat to the rest of the world.

And in what world do cars fly? Oh yes, RILEY's world! lol

"Lisko" That would be him asking to hear Shiny Toy Guns. lol

I'll post more as I think of them.

Later

Tuesday, September 02, 2008

Favorite song

Well, Riley has a new favorite song. Shiny Toys Guns, Le Disko. He calls it "My song." Or, if we push and ask what the name of the song is, he will say "Lisko" It's really cute. Not totally sure what it says about Brad & I as parents, that this is our 3 yr olds favorite song. Here's a link to the bands site, with the lyrics. http://www.wearepilots.com/reflections/

On the other hand my day is not shaping up well. Riley pooped on the floor. Then got busted playing in the toilet. Bismarck just puked on the floor. All this before noon! ARGH!! CALGON! TAKE ME AWAY!!!!

Friday, August 15, 2008

Let the work begin!!!

So I was a little sad on Wednesday. It was the first day of school and I don't have a job. But then today I went online and I had requests for me for subbing for 6 days!! Four days in Aug, 2 in Sept. I am thrilled!! This is awesome!! And I was added to the jr high lists as well, so hopefully I will get more work!

Today was gymnastics. Tons of fun. There was a new kid there. Poor thing. Not even 2 yet and there with the 4 kids. Let's see, one who will be 3 in Oct, one who will be 3 in Sept, one who just turned 3, and then one who will be 5 in Jan. It was rather crazy! I hope they come back next week.

Tomorrow will be nice. Provided that I can get my stuff together I'm going to scrap for the day tomorrow and then tomorrow night is moms night out. :) So that will be nice! But I need some time tonight to get my stuff organized and figure out what I'm going to work on. If I'd planned ahead I'd have my Disney stuff organized, but I didn't. Oh well. Maybe next time.

Alright, hubby will be home soon. Later!

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Customer service? What's that?

Ok, I must be having a week. I kid you not, I had the following conversation last night. We were at Applebees. I ordered a Perfect Margarita. It comes in a shaker tin with a strainer and you pour it.

Me: There's some green stuff floating in here.
Waitress: Oh, that's just mint.
Me: But there's no mint in this drink.
Waitress: Oh but we make mojitos.
Me: But this is a margarita. No mint in it.
Waitress: Well, I wanted you to know it wasn't something gross.
Me: It's something in my tin that shouldn't be there. That's gross in my book.
Waitress: But it's just mint. It must have not come out in the dishwasher.
Me: Which is gross.
Waitress: Well, I want you to know it was washed.
Me: It's still left over food. And I'm really bothered by the fact that the bartender would serve this in a tin that was dirty.
Waitress: Oh, well, she's really busy right now . . .
Me: So?
Waitress: Well, I'll get you a new one.
Me: That's ok. I'll take an iced tea with extra lemon.
Waitress: Ok, lemonade.
Me: TEA! Extra lemon!

Waitress walks away.

Me to Brad: Oh my gosh! You'd think they would be able to hire someone with a brain!

Tuesday, August 05, 2008

I am so done

Men, forewarning that this is a rant about af and the other issues that I get when she's around. So here's your warning to leave if you want! :)



I'm done. I am so sick and tired of my period showing up whenever it wants. Schedule? What's THAT? What do you mean I'm supposed to come every 28 days? I come when I want! I don't CARE if you're in the middle of the stupid grocery store. What's a calendar anyway?

So I started Sunday, while out running errands, 2 weeks late. Thankfully on Sat I had put a pair of panties in the diaper bag for me because we were going to be out and it was going to be hot and I knew that I'd want to change my underwear. Thankfully Brad is helpful enough to think nothing of it when I call him from the bathroom asking for the diaper bag.

I am so done with having PCOS. I am obviously out of remission. My periods are getting later and later. I wish I could go in, have a blood test that says "Yes, the PCOS is out of remission. Take THIS." and have it help. I want to cry.

I'm done having kids. Why can't I just go through menopause NOW? Let's not forget that at almost 35 my hormones are shifting anyway so everything is tweaked. Add to it the mess of PCOS and I am just done.

Later.

Saturday, August 02, 2008

He's THREE!

I absolutely cannot believe that my baby is three years old.

Three years ago today I was sitting in the hospital in Sacramento having just had a c-section. I cannot believe that three years have gone by. It seems like he was just born. Other times it seems like he has always been here. He was worth the long wait that we had though. He is sitting here with me, eating M&M's because he pooped on the toilet. With any luck this kid will potty train at some point!

I just never thought that I could love someone as much as I love him. He is so sweet, so loving, so ornery! lol It's amazing that a child, who is so sweet can be such a trial sometimes too! But he is my joy. I love him so much. I am so blessed to have him!

Happy third birthday Little Dude!!!

Monday, July 28, 2008

I. AM. FURIOUS.

The stupid COW that was selling the house my parents were buying changed her mind.

Long weekend

I am not even sure I remember Friday. Oh yeah. I remember. Friday was the swim party and lunch at my friends house. It's something that she's trying to do every Fri. Whoever can make it does, we all bring something to share for lunch, the kids play and whoever wants to swim does. Then we got home, and left to go meet ANOTHER friend at the park for dinner & play time before swimming lessons.

Saturday we went to go see my grandma, who is doing really well btw, and then we went to Train Town. Then dinner with my folks. It doesn't sound like much but it was almost 6 hours of driving total.

Sunday was INSANE. Here was the plan: church, lunch, Target, home, clean, fair for rides and demolition derby. Church & lunch went fine. lol At lunch my friends dh called Brad. Said he had a new toy he wanted Brad to see. Brad's reply "Oh yeah, I heard!" "Wow, news travels fast." was his reply. Yeah, it does. Realized that I had forgotten to put my id and debit card back in my wallet so we went to Target and had them give us a gift card for the stuff we were returning because they would have put it on the card I didn't have and I needed things. Then we went to my friends house. The new toy was NOT the new Escalade they got on Fri but a new MOTORCYCLE! lol So no, news didn't travel fast!! We were thinking the wrong thing! lol Kids swam, had fun, came home, changed clothes and went to the fair.

Our fair is short, 4 days. So yesterday was the last day. We had promised Riley he could go on rides tonight. So we hit the demolition derby then rides. Got home around 11.

Had lunch with S today. Well, we planned to anyway. Sat down, Susan brought us our drinks. K called her. He'd wrecked while on the bike. He is currently at the hospital getting cleaned up. Nothing broken or anything but road rash at 70 mph isn't nice. I really don't know what to think. He doesn't have a motorcycle license. He hasn't taken a course. NOTHING.

Oh well, off to put away groceries then to get Riley for swimming!

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Feel like I'm gonna cry

and I really don't know why I feel this way. I'm not sure if it is relief, fear or what.

We got back from taking my fil to the airport last night to a message that I have a dr appt tomorrow (Thurs) with my GI dr for a follow up on my EDG. Well, this doesn't work! I don't have childcare, Brad can't take the time off right now and I CAN'T take Riley to this appt. I was able to talk to him on the phone just a few minutes ago.

My biopsy's are fine. Except that they show this thing that is basically like asthma of the esophogus. It is usually related to food allergies. Of course, the 3 top allergens are things that make no sense for me. Eggs--which I don't eat. And I understand that eggs are in other things, but I don't even eat THOSE things on a daily basis. Seafood---I don't eat. Any fish. If it swam I don't eat it. The only think with fish in it in my house is Worcheshire Sauce. Some Italian dressings have anchovie paste but I buy the ones without it because my mom is allergic. And lastly, peanuts. Again, I don't eat nuts often enough. And I know that it could be something that is manufactured in a plant with nuts but again, not in my diet on a regular enough basis to explain something that happens almost daily.

I need to keep a food journal for 2 months then I will go back in with the journal to look at it. The only thing I am to do is take my Prilosec daily ("ignore the take it 30 min before you eat, just take it every morning!"), take my Pepcid Complete at bedtime, no soda (have maybe one a week) and no coffee (I don't drink it at all). When I go back in we will look and see and then decide the next course of action. Next course will be cutting things out of my diet. And maybe an inhaler, similar to what you'd have for asthma.


Later!

Trying to catch up

I am trying to catch up on all the work around the house that Brad didn't do this weekend. I've got a load in the washer, one in the dryer. I just don't feel like I can get it all done today. Course, sitting on my butt on the computer isn't getting the work done.

I'm a little bit anxious. Apparently I was supposed to have a follow up with the GI dr to go over my results. When they biopsied my mole they sent me a letter that it was negative, which we knew. The fact that he wants to see me to go over it makes me nervous. But I don't know what I can do as far as getting in. You can't frigging call me with a "reminder" on Tues night for a Thurs appt! It's only a reminder if I knew about the appt before hand! ARGH! So now I wait to hear if he will do a phone call or not.

We're also waiting to hear if the offer mom & dad put on a house is accepted or not.

Later!

More on Reno

Alright, as my brain is starting to work again I can fill in more. lol

Friday night Blythe & I wore boobie shirts as Jen called them. Mine was my really tight Luxt t-shirt that says "Suck it Down" on the front and "God's Ex-Girlfriend" on the back. B's was just super low-cut. We were walking through the casino with me in front, then Blythe, then Jen. We were getting 2nd & 3rd looks. lol I even got the comment "I'd suck THOSE down". lol BOYS! Here is what Jen said about it, from her view:

"Okay the "suck it down" story. So night one...Suzanne puts on this T-shirt that is a boobie shirt cause it hugs the girls (And Suz has girls!...unlike myself) that reads "suck it down" on the front and "God's ex-girlfriend" on the back. (It's a t-shirt from a Sac punk band). And Mrs Blythe puts on a boobie shirt in all sense of the world...boobie A and boobie B get introduced to Reno on night one. Where as myself is stuck in my boobie less attire as one must have cleavage to wear boobie shirts otherwise you look like a flat chest boy (aka me). So we go strolling through the casinos...Suzanne leading the way with Blythe following and me bringing up the rear....so I get to witness the shock and awe that follows in their wake. The men we encountered would first read Suzanne's shirt (twice many times making sure they read it right)...break into a huge grin (or in the case of the old man stunned confusion) then they got the sight of Blythe's twins wrestling under that top and the double take becomes a triple take as they trip over themselves in confused ecstasy. By the time they get to me they are so bewildered its hilarious and I'm just dying with laughter as we walk through the casinos...yes ladies this continued all weekend long. Suzanne and Blythe were both blessed with boobies to die for and the men appreciated them at great length while I laughed my butt off."

Sat & Sun nights we used some of my cheap silvery/glittery eyeshadow to show off "the girls". Course for B & I this wasn't doing much, just drawing attention to what we already had. Jen joked that we were trying to make it look like she has cleavage. lol

It was a really fun trip. Blythe got a new tat on our way home on Mon. Ray, the tat artist, was HOT!! lol Made me want to get a tat! lol NOT! So that was most of our trip. As things come to mind I'll add more!

Later!

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

How to get kicked off a plane

Good lord. This is what was in my FIL's bag that he was checking tonight (he is flying back to Maine):

2 feet of PVC pipe
muffler
3 extension cords
5 valves
copper pipe fittings
multiple types of blades
saws-all
sander
bungee cords

and on top of all of it? A pillow. Oh, and 3 pages listing chemicals.

*sigh* This is my life. Anyone wanna trade? At least this time we didn't get a call to come pick something up like we did when he tried to take a weed-eater to France. *sigh*

Monday, July 21, 2008

Home again home again, jiggity jig

We're home from Reno. We had a TON of fun!! We stayed at Circus Circus because it is the least expensive hotel that isn't scary. lol

We got there on Friday and went and gambled. Saturday we went shopping then we gambled. lol We decided that it would be fun to collect players cards from all the casinos. I came home with 9 of them. Let's see . . . Circus Circus, Boomtown, Harrahs, Fitzgeralds, Atlantis, Peppermill, Silver Legacy, El Dorado, and Cal Neva. I came home with the same amount of cash as I left with. WOOHOO!!!

B got a new tattoo today. And we drank a few Midori Sours. lol Course that was NOT today! lol

We had a lot of fun. And now I am home and snuggling with Riley while we watch Pooh Bear.

Later!

Friday, July 18, 2008

Just a few more hours!

And I get to leave for Reno!!! YAY!!!

We have swim lessons from 11-11:30 then I come home and Blythe & Jen should already be here! YAY!!!!!! Then off to Reno. The only thing totally planned is that Blythe & I are getting pedi's tomorrow and Jen is getting her eyebrows waxed.

Probably won't be around this weekend because idk if we'll have internet.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Less than 2 days!!!

Till I leave for Reno. I can't wait. I really really can't wait. On Sat Blythe & I are getting pedicures and Jen is getting her eyebrows waxed.

Tomorrow after swim lessons we're having a picnic in the park with Lily & her mom and the little boy around the corner. That will be fun!

I am so tired. Off to shower and go to bed. :) Night!

Later!

Monday, July 14, 2008

My child is a freak!

He is sitting and punching the cat door like it's a punching bag. It's hysterical!