Wednesday, October 31, 2007

So much has happened

since I last blogged. On the 14th, our wedding anniversary, I started to bleed and I passed the baby. On the 15th, we left, as planned, for Disneyland.

The trip was a ton of fun. And I managed to hold it all together. Riley was so awesome. :) He LOVED the characters. He LOVED Pirates, he LOVED the Haunted Mansion. He LOVED LOVED LOVED the train. He was LIVID that he couldn't go on California Screaming though. Um, dude? You're just under 33 inches and you have to be 42 inches to go on that. You're 2...and it goes upside down! lol But he did want to go on it. He also wanted to go on the Matterhorn. And I think that he would have been ok, but he is too short for that too, by only 2 inches. Bummer. :( He was not at all scared of any of the characters. Or any of the rides. His favorite rides though were the train and Small World. It was a GREAT trip...much needed.

Got back to my folks on Fri so that we could go to Aunt Tina's 90th b-day party. Well, that just fucking sucked eggs. :( First, Steve and Danielle wouldn't really talk to either of us. I mean, Steve did talk to us, to go on and on about how he doesn't know how HE is going to handle it, having two kids. "I might have to get rid of my gaming stuff." Dang, we got rid of the X-Box right after Riley was born! Jeff came out from Boston, where he is living with his fiance. *shaking head* He's an idiot. He's known her for 3 months. They are engaged and she's pregnant. And of course, this was supposed to be kept from us because of all that we went through to get pg with Riley. *rolling eyes* It annoys me that they all think that we have to be treated with kid gloves about people being pregnant.

Anyway, I LOST it. I totally went off when I found out that my mother knew that Jeff's fiance was pg. Looked at her and said "What, do you think I'm stupid and I wouldn't have figured it out?" Went off on the whole "Well, we're so lucky to have Riley" and "At least you have Riley" comments. Oh yeah, cuz we're LUCKY to NOT have the other three? It just pisses me off. I cried pretty much the whole way home on Sunday.

Since then, I started my new class. I'm in a 1st/2nd combo. I don't know how well it is going to work for me. The teacher isn't super organized. She doesn't really have a plan book. She is just the opposite of Barbara. And I LIKE how Barb does stuff! lol

I am also getting a new supervisor. I don't feel that my current supervisor is helping me as much as she should be. I email with questions and don't get answers. She showed up over 20 minutes late for an observation that I had already put off for 4 days because she didn't want to drive up here twice in a week. Well, she ended up having to anyway! lol By that point I had put off that lesson for over a week.

Today, I'm home sick. I started getting a sore throat yesterday. It started around 10am. By 4pm, I had a headache, stiff neck and fever. I decided that since today is Halloween it was better to stay home today and sleep and rest than risk it getting worse. I slept till 11 and feel a TON better. Riley is at daycare, Brad is sleeping, it works. And I am feeling a ton better! Which means that I will be back at school tomorrow.

Ok, that's enough for now. :) There's crap going on with Monica and some shit she might be trying to pull with her wedding, but I'll write about that another day.

Later!

1 comment:

The other me said...

Oh Suzanne, I have been thinking about you so much lately and am so sorry about your baby. People are just so thoughtless at times, I know when I jad my 2nd m/c ( right before Eli) people said to me
( several times!) that it had happened because God was trying to tell me that I shouldn't have more kids!! Can you imagine GOd thinking "hmmmm, lets give her a baby and then I'll take it away and let her see it dead on the U/S...yeah THAT should teach her not to try and have more kids!" I know MY god isn't so heartless! I think that sometimes babies can be so special that all they need is to have a tiny little body formed for a short time and then go back home, sad for us but perfect for them. I'm also sure that we will get to raise them one day, just not here and now.
Some things are so hard for us to comprehend with out mere mortal minds, it's better to just try and cope and not wonder 'why'.
I am so excited about your trp to Disney and hearing how much Riley loved it, just 5 weeks til we go and I cannot WAIT for my boys to see and experience all that magic!
Ahem.....pictures of that glorious boy would be nice ( do you still have my email? helenwith6@aol.com) thankyou!!!